Yr12 vs Mark-Up Day~~

We have Year12 mark up day today.....
I dressed up as green dino....lolx...
don't have my picture here...anywayz.....
My friends are really cute:
Yukata - Japanese(Emi and Haruka)
Cowgirl - Maraucian(Chin)
Pocahontus(however u spell it) - Cambodian(Pich)Even our VCE coordinator cosplay as clown~~♪~yik~♪

TASTY!!!

My English Tutor made this for me.
It's called "Lemon Yogurt Cake",
Love the lemon taste~~~
By the way, yesterday when I was about to wash my hand, I saw blood on my fingertip.....!!!
I didn't feel pain at all though...and I thought it was fun so i took a picture of it =D♪~yik~♪

最近、何ができたの？

この間…やる気がないんだ。

好きじゃないことばっか考えたり、
悩んだり、
自分のことを受け入れなくなったり…

この世界をもっといいことをできるために、
みんなの存在は必要だなって思えたけど…

けど、
私の存在価値はあるの？
私の存在、要るの？
私、この世界でいてもいいの？
死んじゃえばいいんでしょう？

今まで、私、何をできたの？いい事何件したの？成功したもの何件なったの？

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生日快乐！

美燕~！

生日快乐！

もう10月だ！

OMG.....
TIME FLIES.
TIME LIES.....eh? lolx...

Anywayz, recently, not in good mood.
I feel like some part of me is lost.
I don't know why am I studying anymore.....
I used to know why I study and what I am studying for last year...
It's like... I just suddenly lost track of where I am now.
Never felt like this before....
And I hate this feeling.

I lost my....target.

Probably because my target, my dream...may not be able to come true at all? ---- I have this stupid gut feeling.... sometimes.
Most of the times, I know that one day, my dream will come true.....
My dream? Of course -------
-------- ☆★GO TO JAPAN!!!! CONCERTS!!! JOHNNY's（namely,嵐 and Hey!Say!JUMP）!!!!!★☆

Well...probably the chance of having it come true is.....like.....
0.000000000000000000000001%?

時間は飛ばして行くの！！！
止まんないの！！！

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最近、かなり、消極ですよ、私は。

自分の短所ばっか見ているの。
悪いけど、正直、自分は…自分が死ねば言いという考えもあった。

こないだずっと自分は何のために勉強しているのを考えている…
ゴールがなんか…いきなりなくなってしまう…

どうしよう？